Spinning the wheels

Ever feel like you are spinning your wheels?



O.K. let's break that down... What do I really mean by saying spinning your wheels?

O.K. you have seen racecars on a racetrack right? Well when they try to take off a little too fast.... what with their tires being so smoothe.... at times the tires literally spin in circles but the vehicle goes nowhere.

I'm sure most people have driven in the rain and experienced this same phenomenon.

Well... sometimes I equate my life to this exact same motion. I move fast... in fact I sprint with all my might forward... I feel that I have travelled so far... and then I look around and I am at the same spot. Yeah.. that's right I am still at the same exact fucking spot in which I started. What? This makes no sense..... I was just running like a madman... I should be way farther ahead...right? Hello? Is anybody listening? I said... I was just running my fucking ass off like Jesse Owens and I have not moved an inch forward... What is that? What is that? What is that?

Well these are the telltale signs.... O.K. so if you ever go sailing... there are these small little strings or ribbons that are placed on the sails. At anytime you can look up and determine the wind and how your boat is moving by the direction of these "telltale sign".

If the ribbon is up... it means that the wind is blowing hard and you do not have your sails adjusted properly to catch all the wind and move faster. If the ribbon is blowing directly back you are sailing at the correct angle with the wind. If the ribbon is pointing directly down that means you have no wind and you are probably not moving!

So spiritually I feel my telltale signs are pointing down. I do not feel as though I am moving forward on my spiritual journey. I have come to these conclusions sporadically over the course of my life and each and every time I have felt these signals I have made a major shift. Usually this has involved some type of major travelling journey.

For now... I know I must remain grounded... although I am being called for a journey... I know it is somewhat distant. Although I know I must make this journey eventually to progress on my path.

For now... I must be content in the small strides I make on a daily basis.... tiny steps on a path that is pulling me farther and farther away from my current location!

I must remain grounded. Although my future and my destiny is forever skyward...