CASE CLOSED ASSHOLE

Oh man... negativity be gone. Ever dealt with a person who is completely insane? Or in my situation, a tenant that is completely insane? You try to be a good guy and fix a toilet and the next thing you know you are being accused of subjecting the tenant to mold, asbestos, lead and any other invention they can find on the internet? 

Have you ever walked into a person's home to evaluate a problem.... leave to buy a new toilet to help out the tenant and return with your workers and then be accused of assaulting "said" insane tenant that you never touched and then being "citizen's arrested"? 

Have you ever had to take a lunatic to court to get them out of your property since they refused to pay any rent and then have to hire an attorney costing thousands of dollars and then having to defend yourself that your house never had any mold, asbestos or lead and that the "said" insane person is just working the system?

Have you ever showed up prepared to battle your opponent on all the merits of truth and the knowledge of right overcoming wrong... and then to have your opponent show up and basically throw in the towel and turn over the keys to your property and say they have moved out?

Have you ever had to witness the same "insane" person beg the court to waive court fees and the judge allowing it?

Have you ever had to watch that same "insane" piece of shit walk out of the court completely unscathed... as you have just lost thousands upon thousands of dollars defending yourself for nothing....?

Well, Case Closed on getting Mr. Insanity out of my house!

However, Case open on my next venture of dragging Mr. Nuts back into court to get a judgment for all I am out! Oh and don't think I have forgot my false "citizen's arrest".... oh yeah that's gonna cost said "insane" asshole a LOT of money.

Holy Diver and the Bible!!!!

I think Ronnie James Dio is a huge Bible fan!

So I have been reading the bible as I previously mentioned. I am really digging it! I would say this is definitely right up there with such epic works as War and Peace by Tolstoy which I had the pleasure to read while I lay in a hammock in Nicaragua while serving in the Peace Corpse from 1995-1997.

The Bible is an epic adventure of untold proportions. Wow... combine history, fable, strength, weakness, pain and struggles, triumph, defeat, victory, loss, suffering, sadness, elation, adventure, peace, war, Now mix all that with poetry, humor, wisdom, teachings and philosophy.

I am still working my way through the good book. I would say i am about 40% through. Ok maybe only 35%....it's a long book! Man.... I am feeling good about my progress. Just like War and Peace... it does get bogged down in names and places at times... but it picks back up! I feel really good and definitely I am feeling good about my progress. I am simultaneously reading World history books and geographical books to align all these events and to filter it all out. I mean everything must be read through a scholarly yet receptive and reticent prism in order to search for true meaning!Now shall we progress?

O.K. Holy Diver? I mean what the fuck right? How can I put Holy Diver by Ronnie James Dio: lead singer Black Sabbath, Rainbow and Dio in the same context of the Holy Bible? Well do not let ignorance blind your vision... Ronnie was singing about all those epic stories that I have been reading about in the bible. The highs and lows... the strengths and weaknesses. The struggles and battles.

At times we all must face this battle. Negative waves of evil and darkness will confront us. These are the times we must look deep within our souls, we must hunker down and let the storms rage above our head, we must keep calm and look for inner solace. Let the fury rage above our heads and not through our hearts. Let all that pain and negativity decompress and deflate. This darkness can come from even the closest places we least expect.

However, no matter how hard the fury rages... no matter how much fear our enemy tries to invoke.... all that strength and that mighty storm will collapse and dissipate just as fast as it flew into our lives. I know... I have been fighting the good battle for the last 2 weeks! At a certain point you will realize that you have seen the summit of a person's evil. You have seen the best that this rage has to show you!

At this point you will now have the strength to rise up, assess your damages, gather your wits, flex your muscle and come down with a mighty fury on this evil! You soon realize.... You are a fighter! You are the True Power! Now you stand tall! You scream to the evil, "That's it" ? "That's all you have"? 9 times out of 10 you don't even have to do battle.

The great fury will now cower away and run. Your words will send fear to not only this negativity but to all the negativity that is near. In the unlikely event that you must do battle, your strength is so omnipotent your enemies are crushed in battle! These are the times we ride the tiger!!!!!

Between the velvet lies
There's a truth that's hard as steel
The vision never dies
Life's a never ending wheel

Holy Diver
You're the star of the masquerade
No need to look so afraid
Jump on the tiger
You can feel his heart but you know he's mean

Some light can never be seen
Race for the morning
You can hide in the sun 'till you see the light

Oh we will pray it's all right

Ronnie Dio RIP brother! July 10, 1942 – May 16, 2010

Been reading the Bible lately...

People have such weird reactions when you tell them you are reading the Bible. Fanatic, manic depressive, and my Favorite: What the FUCK! .... so many varied and interesting reactions...

Well, I have to say: I have been bashing this book my whole life and rejecting everything that it has to say... but truth be told... I have never actually read it. So, I am going to read the good book and hold all judgment until I am done. I mean I really am a true hypocrite!

In all actuality... it is so different from what I thought. I thought it would be just some cult like... "I love god" type book.

So far from the truth. In actuality, I am actually digging it more because I have always enjoyed history. yeah that is all debatable.... however,

As far as making any metaphysical connections, true meanings... finding higher plateaus.... well this is my journey... I am working my way through the Bible... I have read the Koran and I need to read

The Analects
Veda
Upanishads
Tao-te-ching
Talmud
Five Classics
Bhagavad Gita

My reading list is before me... Lofty goals I am sure.

Hey... why work 9-5 without purpose... at least seek some higher purpose... right/ i mean what else is there???

What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?

Matthew 16: 26

Bob keeps me grounded and soulful...

Yes... life throws us in turmoil... spins us around like we are in a washing machine. Life shakes us like a rag doll... beats the shit out of us. Life can really try our faith and spirit...

When I find myself in these low... dark caverns; I bust out my Bob Marley... My spirits lift... I feel a sense of being... I become grounded and present. Life begins to have a semblance of clarity. Bob lifts me up! Bob sparks a fire within me and makes me soulful and content.

I'm listening to Bob as I type... my head sways from side to side... my inner "chi" is in line... meditation is achieved. Nirvana is still a possibility.

If even for such a brief and ever so forceful and meaningful time... i am transported and the mundane bullshit of day to day existence is trivial and meaningless... I am one w my spirit...

Wow... all that and No... I'm not smoking pot!!!! Here is to you Bob... a prophet in our day....

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
None but ourselves can free our mind
Woh, have no fear for atomic energy
'Cause none of them-a can-a stop-a the time
How long shall they kill our prophets
While we stand aside and look?
Yes, some say it's just a part of it
We've got to fullfill the book
Won't you help to sing
These songs of freedom?
'Cause all I ever had
Redemption songs
All I ever had
Redemption songs
These songs of freedom
Songs of freedom

Nesta Robert "Bob" Marley, February 6 1945 – May 11 1981 RIP!!!

Tweetle fucking Dee and Dweedle Fucking Dumb!

So ambivalent about the state of things as we approach the culmination of years of obscurity and people trying to hide or change known truths or in the worse circumstances... believing in arcaic.... self serving ideological SHIT!

Thus the Tweedle Dee's and the Tweedle fucking Dumbs of the world slow the inevitable progression of man into the future and delay the launching of cerebral vessels into uncertain and unknown waters. Yet, now we flounder, into known waters and existences in which we so readily accept and fail to venture forward to discover!

Thus, this ideological ineptness of the passive and somewhat stupid "Twiddle Dee" is obscuring the future and driving the Tweedle Fucking Dumb down a blind and unrealistic future....

There are those that know and accept the true vision and destiny of the majority and the unknown... well... we shall never know the unknown... the only fact that we do actually know is that our destiny is an obscure path that leads us forward...

So for all you fucking idiots that try to open paths that lead backwards I say Fuck You and that we will forever progress... your stupidity will not further your cause and I only hope one day you will realize that your ignorance has only deterred those with a somewhat nodule of intelligence and a belief in that which is true and which shall be;

We are individuals... not pods of subhuman conformists! While our culture molds us in the latter.... our brains lead us to the former.... And as such, our paths will lead us to unknown truths about our existence and our ultimate purpose!!!

Therefore I say to you Tweedle Dee... take your friend Tweedle Dumb out to the desert and shoot him in his head and then take the gun and point it at yourself... and pull the fucking trigger....

Of course this is only a metaphor~~!!!!!

Easter

So I am sitting here rocking to some old school music. The Cure. Man, I dig that band. Perhaps my all time favorite! Tomorrow is Easter. At what point to we slow down, stop and take it all in? At what time can we reflect on what it means to be here....

I think Easter must be one of those times.... it comes at a weird point. We are busy with school and work and all the bullshit that comes with our merry go round world...

The resurection. Wow... the defining moment in our history. The moment when our lives came to have meaning. How we interpret that meaning is diverse and immense. I am still trying to sort through these different feelings and beliefs... always searching for higher meaning and connections.

I have long ago decided that rejection of faith in its entirety is really not a truthful connection with my core yet a ploy to invoke feelings in others...

I strive to reach the plateau where my true feelings and desires reign supreme above all else. However this state of being must also be in relation to a strong sense of empathy for others.

This combination will lead me to a road of self satisfaction for both my self purpose and that of my fellow man. Lofty goals I am sure!

For now... I move ever subtly forward... creeping along... trying to make a difference... often failing!

Spinning the wheels

Ever feel like you are spinning your wheels?



O.K. let's break that down... What do I really mean by saying spinning your wheels?

O.K. you have seen racecars on a racetrack right? Well when they try to take off a little too fast.... what with their tires being so smoothe.... at times the tires literally spin in circles but the vehicle goes nowhere.

I'm sure most people have driven in the rain and experienced this same phenomenon.

Well... sometimes I equate my life to this exact same motion. I move fast... in fact I sprint with all my might forward... I feel that I have travelled so far... and then I look around and I am at the same spot. Yeah.. that's right I am still at the same exact fucking spot in which I started. What? This makes no sense..... I was just running like a madman... I should be way farther ahead...right? Hello? Is anybody listening? I said... I was just running my fucking ass off like Jesse Owens and I have not moved an inch forward... What is that? What is that? What is that?

Well these are the telltale signs.... O.K. so if you ever go sailing... there are these small little strings or ribbons that are placed on the sails. At anytime you can look up and determine the wind and how your boat is moving by the direction of these "telltale sign".

If the ribbon is up... it means that the wind is blowing hard and you do not have your sails adjusted properly to catch all the wind and move faster. If the ribbon is blowing directly back you are sailing at the correct angle with the wind. If the ribbon is pointing directly down that means you have no wind and you are probably not moving!

So spiritually I feel my telltale signs are pointing down. I do not feel as though I am moving forward on my spiritual journey. I have come to these conclusions sporadically over the course of my life and each and every time I have felt these signals I have made a major shift. Usually this has involved some type of major travelling journey.

For now... I know I must remain grounded... although I am being called for a journey... I know it is somewhat distant. Although I know I must make this journey eventually to progress on my path.

For now... I must be content in the small strides I make on a daily basis.... tiny steps on a path that is pulling me farther and farther away from my current location!

I must remain grounded. Although my future and my destiny is forever skyward...